Personal Thought Conspiracies
I'm finally updating my blog again. I don't think anyone is actually reading this but I'm still writing because this is like my personal diary or something.
So... Happy new year 2014! 2013 was not the best year of my life. Yes I did go to the ISSF in London and won a medal and it was amazing. However, I had a big leak on my faith and religious life. Kind of weird, huh? Seeing someone like me who talks about God most of the time and get giddy chills when the topic of salvation or religious ethics comes up. Yes, I have always been that enthusiastic with my religion. But to be honest, sometimes, the greatest faith fell harder than mild faith. But believe me, feeling distant from God is the worst feeling even in my life (not even a hyperbole).
Which is why I'm going to start this year with God. I made a mistake last year and I wanna share it so that if you're reading this, you won't make the same mistake as me. Here it goes........
I'm in a curriculum called IB Diploma and its an international curriculum. Personally, I think its a curriculum designed by the devil himself and it came from hell (actually its from Geneva, Switzerland 1969). IB offers higher level and standard level subjects and when they say its higher level, they mean non-human level. The curriculum requires us to take minimum of 1 Science subject and a maximum of 2. Taking 2 sciences is already considered suicide by the global IB student victims. But guess what? I take triple science of Biology and Chemistry Higher Level and Physics Standard Level just because I wanna get into a medical school and Physics is required. TADAA
IB also has tons of works and considering my IQ rank, I need a lot of work to do.
Now you, or some people at my school may think I'm smart because I got medals and a scholarship and everything. TO BE HONEST, I am not smart at all. To achieve that medal, I almost died of constipation and hyperventilation. Not to mention Mariska the genius did most of the work lol I love you. And for the scholarship part, I almost dies trying to get it. The amount of work and effort I put into it is too damn high lol. Yes, I need longer time to grasp concepts and memorize things. I'd make summaries and bring them everywhere I go and read them whenever I can. I start studying for an exam 2 weeks before and will most probably get an average score. SO I AINT SMART AT ALL REALLY.
However, somehow, someway, without me realizing it, I didn't suppress my pride.
I prayed "God give me strength to overcome my problems".
THAT IS A WRONG PRAYER
with my own strength, I can never overcome IB. I need purely God's grace to finish it.
So when I study hard and take pride in my own intellectual abilities (based oon past results which is a dumb mistake), and did't get good grades, I blamed God.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light"- Matthew 11:28-30
Jesus said by yoke was supposed to be light but what I felt was not light at all.
really my grades fell like a meteorite. and when the meteorite landed it hurts so much.
I was frustrated, giving up, and forgot my purpose in life that I'm still in God's plan.
Then my uncle from Atlanta came back to Indonesia and he talked a few things with my mom which opened my eyes and slapped me right across the face.
Now, Jesus provides this convertible Mercedes-Benz for all of his followers. By being in Christ, I am eligible for the privilege of riding the convertible. In fact, I am on it already. However, instead of chilling inside the convertible, I'm still carrying that yoke upon my shoulder. All I needed to do is to let it go. and it wasn't easy.
By letting the yoke go, you can enjoy the ride, and realize that the only way to let go that yoke is by grace! All I need to do is to praise and worship and give thanks. Well I still need to be diligent at school but I should not see it as a burden. Do the best and God will take care of the rest!
Now I'm in the process of letting go. And I know that only by God's grace, I will let go eventually.
Happy New Years, let go of the yoke, and I hope you guys enjoy the ride with God this year!
Here are some pics of meh and mah awesome fameleh
So... Happy new year 2014! 2013 was not the best year of my life. Yes I did go to the ISSF in London and won a medal and it was amazing. However, I had a big leak on my faith and religious life. Kind of weird, huh? Seeing someone like me who talks about God most of the time and get giddy chills when the topic of salvation or religious ethics comes up. Yes, I have always been that enthusiastic with my religion. But to be honest, sometimes, the greatest faith fell harder than mild faith. But believe me, feeling distant from God is the worst feeling even in my life (not even a hyperbole).
Which is why I'm going to start this year with God. I made a mistake last year and I wanna share it so that if you're reading this, you won't make the same mistake as me. Here it goes........
I'm in a curriculum called IB Diploma and its an international curriculum. Personally, I think its a curriculum designed by the devil himself and it came from hell (actually its from Geneva, Switzerland 1969). IB offers higher level and standard level subjects and when they say its higher level, they mean non-human level. The curriculum requires us to take minimum of 1 Science subject and a maximum of 2. Taking 2 sciences is already considered suicide by the global IB student victims. But guess what? I take triple science of Biology and Chemistry Higher Level and Physics Standard Level just because I wanna get into a medical school and Physics is required. TADAA
IB also has tons of works and considering my IQ rank, I need a lot of work to do.
Now you, or some people at my school may think I'm smart because I got medals and a scholarship and everything. TO BE HONEST, I am not smart at all. To achieve that medal, I almost died of constipation and hyperventilation. Not to mention Mariska the genius did most of the work lol I love you. And for the scholarship part, I almost dies trying to get it. The amount of work and effort I put into it is too damn high lol. Yes, I need longer time to grasp concepts and memorize things. I'd make summaries and bring them everywhere I go and read them whenever I can. I start studying for an exam 2 weeks before and will most probably get an average score. SO I AINT SMART AT ALL REALLY.
However, somehow, someway, without me realizing it, I didn't suppress my pride.
I prayed "God give me strength to overcome my problems".
THAT IS A WRONG PRAYER
with my own strength, I can never overcome IB. I need purely God's grace to finish it.
So when I study hard and take pride in my own intellectual abilities (based oon past results which is a dumb mistake), and did't get good grades, I blamed God.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light"- Matthew 11:28-30
Jesus said by yoke was supposed to be light but what I felt was not light at all.
really my grades fell like a meteorite. and when the meteorite landed it hurts so much.
I was frustrated, giving up, and forgot my purpose in life that I'm still in God's plan.
Then my uncle from Atlanta came back to Indonesia and he talked a few things with my mom which opened my eyes and slapped me right across the face.
Now, Jesus provides this convertible Mercedes-Benz for all of his followers. By being in Christ, I am eligible for the privilege of riding the convertible. In fact, I am on it already. However, instead of chilling inside the convertible, I'm still carrying that yoke upon my shoulder. All I needed to do is to let it go. and it wasn't easy.
By letting the yoke go, you can enjoy the ride, and realize that the only way to let go that yoke is by grace! All I need to do is to praise and worship and give thanks. Well I still need to be diligent at school but I should not see it as a burden. Do the best and God will take care of the rest!
Now I'm in the process of letting go. And I know that only by God's grace, I will let go eventually.
Happy New Years, let go of the yoke, and I hope you guys enjoy the ride with God this year!
Here are some pics of meh and mah awesome fameleh
xoxo
shintya
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Goal + God = Gold
Been a long time since I updated this web but I got good news.
Another Gold by God this year. What a crazy year, eh?
There's this international choir competition in Guangzhou (8-14 November 2012) and our school decided to join.
I first auditioned in early February 2012 and surprisingly got accepted into the team. Why surprisingly? Cause I have no singing background at all and our school's choir coach has a killer voice. My friend referred it as "the voice that made Celine Dion go home and cry". No joke. If she was to hear me sing, I didn't think she'd like it. However, God gives people things that you never think about right?;)
I got into the team. I was very happy. Until about the next 2 weeks, our principal gathered the choir team in the library and told us that the team is cancelled.
We cried. And prayed. Together. Something that rarely happens in a community like mine.
God sees the tears. They put us back. How awesome is that?
We continued practicing for hours 4x a week. We had to start everything from 0 since almost all the members have never had any singing lessons before. Moreover, the songs that we use are high-standard, classical songs. It was FRUSTRATING, trust me.
I'm in Soprano and the notes are so hard to reach, sometimes it hurts. We worked hard, we sowed (at least we thought we sowed), but we reaped nothing (not yet)
Until like 3 months before the competition, we were still a total mess. Tempos are too slow, sometimes too fast. Some got lost in the middle of the song. Some can't control their pitch. Some sing a few notes higher, some sing a few notes lower. When we sing the high notes, we sounded like a dog stuck on a door (true quote from our coach).
All of these eats my time, really. Now I'm an IB student and taking triple sciences. I can't afford being distracted by any competitions. My grade starts to fall. I really am trying hard to keep things up. But I'm just not enough.
I cried a lot during these months. I'm doing so many things all at the same time and nothing seems to go right. I know my coach cries a lot, too. Everybody was hopeless.
Our school made us a concert before we leave Surabaya. The Title of the concert is "Born To Praise". That was what we learned during the few months of frustration. That nothing else in the world matters but God. Men's praise? our proudness? Our ego? To prove to them we can sing? These are the things that fades away in a blink of an eye. But to sing for God, to glorify His name and His name only? That should be our main purpose, true?
The concert, in short, was awful. By the end of the concert, our coach went to a room on the backstage and cried. That's like the worst reaction you can get from your coach.
I came to God. Back to God all over again. It always ends up in Him. We don't know that God is all we need until God is all we have!
He kept on telling me these words:
"O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
This was taken from Mark 31:14, when Peter was walking on water then drowned since he doubted for a second.
"You will reap the seeds you sow"
i did thought I sow a lot when we were practicing.
But there's this doubt inside. You don't know what will happen and what are the competitors like. Can we actually win this thing?
Before we left, we talked about so many things. I was kind of surprised to find many of my friends who actually doubted the existence God. But they admitted that through this one small choir team, their faith grew little by little. They have faith
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Another Gold by God this year. What a crazy year, eh?
There's this international choir competition in Guangzhou (8-14 November 2012) and our school decided to join.
I first auditioned in early February 2012 and surprisingly got accepted into the team. Why surprisingly? Cause I have no singing background at all and our school's choir coach has a killer voice. My friend referred it as "the voice that made Celine Dion go home and cry". No joke. If she was to hear me sing, I didn't think she'd like it. However, God gives people things that you never think about right?;)
I got into the team. I was very happy. Until about the next 2 weeks, our principal gathered the choir team in the library and told us that the team is cancelled.
We cried. And prayed. Together. Something that rarely happens in a community like mine.
God sees the tears. They put us back. How awesome is that?
We continued practicing for hours 4x a week. We had to start everything from 0 since almost all the members have never had any singing lessons before. Moreover, the songs that we use are high-standard, classical songs. It was FRUSTRATING, trust me.
I'm in Soprano and the notes are so hard to reach, sometimes it hurts. We worked hard, we sowed (at least we thought we sowed), but we reaped nothing (not yet)
Until like 3 months before the competition, we were still a total mess. Tempos are too slow, sometimes too fast. Some got lost in the middle of the song. Some can't control their pitch. Some sing a few notes higher, some sing a few notes lower. When we sing the high notes, we sounded like a dog stuck on a door (true quote from our coach).
All of these eats my time, really. Now I'm an IB student and taking triple sciences. I can't afford being distracted by any competitions. My grade starts to fall. I really am trying hard to keep things up. But I'm just not enough.
I cried a lot during these months. I'm doing so many things all at the same time and nothing seems to go right. I know my coach cries a lot, too. Everybody was hopeless.
Our school made us a concert before we leave Surabaya. The Title of the concert is "Born To Praise". That was what we learned during the few months of frustration. That nothing else in the world matters but God. Men's praise? our proudness? Our ego? To prove to them we can sing? These are the things that fades away in a blink of an eye. But to sing for God, to glorify His name and His name only? That should be our main purpose, true?
The concert, in short, was awful. By the end of the concert, our coach went to a room on the backstage and cried. That's like the worst reaction you can get from your coach.
I came to God. Back to God all over again. It always ends up in Him. We don't know that God is all we need until God is all we have!
He kept on telling me these words:
"O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
This was taken from Mark 31:14, when Peter was walking on water then drowned since he doubted for a second.
"You will reap the seeds you sow"
i did thought I sow a lot when we were practicing.
But there's this doubt inside. You don't know what will happen and what are the competitors like. Can we actually win this thing?
Before we left, we talked about so many things. I was kind of surprised to find many of my friends who actually doubted the existence God. But they admitted that through this one small choir team, their faith grew little by little. They have faith
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For His Power Is Made Perfect In My Weakness
I don't know how to start this post. It's been a while since I wrote a post. I've been extremely busy with school works and competitions that I sleep at 2 most of the days.
Let me start with what happened this week. THIS SUPER CRAZY WEEK!!
So there's this competition called InaYS (Indonesian Young Scientist) that i joined. In pairs, we have to make research plus the experiment on scientific stuffs. My school has always been winners since God knows when. So there's this pressure to at least bring something home, either the Bronze or the Silver medal. The past winners' researches are like using fish's mucus as antimicrobacterial, using durian skin as mosquito repellent and stuffs. Our research is titled "A Novel Approach in Using Peanut Shells to Eliminate Copper Content in Water".
We worked so hard on it that we only slept for few hours. LOL
On Friday, we were told that we're going to the semi finals which was going to be held in Bandung, Thursday, September 13th. We were extremely euphoric with the news!
We (6 teams from our school majoring in Ecology, Physics, and Math) left Surabaya on that day with our posters that are going to be exhibited in Parahyangan University.
When I looked around to see other contestants' posters, I saw a few researches that were very similar to ours. I was extremely frustrated because I thought that their project are way better than ours.
When we got home, I was still so frustrated because I know I wouldn't stand a chance to win. So the others were going out for dinner and I decided to stay home. I locked our penthouse and grabbed the guitar.
I started worshiping God and praying with the guitar. I replayed 2 songs over and over again:
"Be Glorified"- True Worshipper
"Kuasamu Bekerja"-Sari Simorangkir
I know that God is not only my Master. But also my Father, my Best Friend, my Defender.
He has power over every single thing on Earth and I want Him to know that right now, in this situation, I need Him desperately. That only by His grace I can go through everything.
While I was praying, God made me realized something. "What is this medal compared to your salvation?"
I thought for a while
"Nothing..." My salvation worth a LOT more than this gold medal though I need it so bad.
Then I realized that I have to start giving thanks
I gave thanks to God that He chose me instead of other people that are definitely nicer, prettier, smarter, richer than me, to be His child.
To be raised in a family who teaches Christian values is a grace! You don't get to pick your families, God picks them for us. And He chose me!! He chose an annoying girl who nags and cries just because she's afraid that she'll lose a competition.
I started giving thanks for EVERYTHING.
And then I humbly asked Him
"Dad, I know I don't worth anything, that You are the creator everything, that I am actually poor, that all I have right now is only by Your grace. But if I may humbly ask, can you be with me throughout this whole competition so that the words I present and the things I do is only to glorify your name."
Then God told me something
"For my power is made perfect in weakness"
And yes I realized I am so desperately weak right now that only God can save me.
My friends came back and I had to stop crying. LOL
I just thought that I'll just lay it down before Him and I know whatever will happen is the best for me, that His plans are the best for me. He is the one who knows what I need, He knows be better than I know myself.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"- Jeremiah 29:11
Exhibition day came and very few of the visitors came to take a look at our poster. Yes we were frustrated. The other posters were very crowded with visitors asking questions.
I repeat my motto throughout the day "For Your power is made perfect in my weakness"
And at the end of the day, it was announced that we made it through the finals held the next day.
I thanked God because I know that if it weren't for His grace and mercy and loveeeeeeee... ARHHHHH I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO
The finals is to do a presentation. The finalists were told to stay in one room until their team number was called.
I practiced over and over again because prayer and faith is not enough. We, ourselves must act.
"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead"-James 2:17
When we were about to be called, i grabbed my partner's hand and asked her to pray with me and she led the prayer. We prayed for wisdom and His grace, and that He would touch the judges' heart to not ask super hard questions! I mean, God has power over everybody, so...
Ecology has 5 judges while Math and Physics have 3. there are 33 teams competing for ecology while there are only 6 teams for math and 21 teams for Physics.
We presented
The judges asked questions.
The judge who was sitting on the middle seem to understand our presentation. the orher 2 judges on the left side seem to not understand m research.
What's amazing is that the middle judge guy debated the other 2 judges on the left and defended us!!!!
HOW THE HEAVENLY AMAZING IS THAT?!
We came out from the presentation a bit relaxed because we have done our part, the research, presenting, praying, and stuffs. Now its all up to God and we know He's doing His part right then.
The result came out
Bronze medal for Ecology goes to Natasha Kristie and Celina Sayuri from Cita Hati SHS (my school) with the title "Putri Malu (mimosa pudica L) as antimictobacterial"
Silver medal goes to
-sorry I forgot the school's name and the winner's name, and his research title-hehehe
and I was crushed. Bronze and Silver medals are taken already. No hope for me. But i was like "IN THE NAME JEESUSSSSS MY FATHER, PROVIDER, PROTECTOR, BEST FRIEND, CREATOR" in my heart
And the gold medal goes to
"Shintya Tanggara and Mariska Grace from Cita Hati SHS, with the title "A Novel Approach in Using Peanut Shells to Eliminate Copper Content in Water""
And I was like
"FOR YOUR POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN MY WEAKNESS, GOD. ONLY BY YOUR GRACE"
I couldn't believe that we won. Because I know that I was desperate because I don't stand any chance. That if I get the gold medal, it is not -even a little- because of me. If they say I won, I'd say, NO, I didn't win. JESUS WIN.
Can you imagine?
I dont know now I cant describe it in words...................................3qifgrcboqruhgqeuorhfquego urh
I grabbed Mariska's hand and we prayed together and give thanks to God.
ONLY BY HIS GRACE
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Let me start with what happened this week. THIS SUPER CRAZY WEEK!!
So there's this competition called InaYS (Indonesian Young Scientist) that i joined. In pairs, we have to make research plus the experiment on scientific stuffs. My school has always been winners since God knows when. So there's this pressure to at least bring something home, either the Bronze or the Silver medal. The past winners' researches are like using fish's mucus as antimicrobacterial, using durian skin as mosquito repellent and stuffs. Our research is titled "A Novel Approach in Using Peanut Shells to Eliminate Copper Content in Water".
We worked so hard on it that we only slept for few hours. LOL
On Friday, we were told that we're going to the semi finals which was going to be held in Bandung, Thursday, September 13th. We were extremely euphoric with the news!
We (6 teams from our school majoring in Ecology, Physics, and Math) left Surabaya on that day with our posters that are going to be exhibited in Parahyangan University.
When I looked around to see other contestants' posters, I saw a few researches that were very similar to ours. I was extremely frustrated because I thought that their project are way better than ours.
When we got home, I was still so frustrated because I know I wouldn't stand a chance to win. So the others were going out for dinner and I decided to stay home. I locked our penthouse and grabbed the guitar.
I started worshiping God and praying with the guitar. I replayed 2 songs over and over again:
"Be Glorified"- True Worshipper
"Kuasamu Bekerja"-Sari Simorangkir
I know that God is not only my Master. But also my Father, my Best Friend, my Defender.
He has power over every single thing on Earth and I want Him to know that right now, in this situation, I need Him desperately. That only by His grace I can go through everything.
While I was praying, God made me realized something. "What is this medal compared to your salvation?"
I thought for a while
"Nothing..." My salvation worth a LOT more than this gold medal though I need it so bad.
Then I realized that I have to start giving thanks
I gave thanks to God that He chose me instead of other people that are definitely nicer, prettier, smarter, richer than me, to be His child.
To be raised in a family who teaches Christian values is a grace! You don't get to pick your families, God picks them for us. And He chose me!! He chose an annoying girl who nags and cries just because she's afraid that she'll lose a competition.
I started giving thanks for EVERYTHING.
And then I humbly asked Him
"Dad, I know I don't worth anything, that You are the creator everything, that I am actually poor, that all I have right now is only by Your grace. But if I may humbly ask, can you be with me throughout this whole competition so that the words I present and the things I do is only to glorify your name."
Then God told me something
"For my power is made perfect in weakness"
And yes I realized I am so desperately weak right now that only God can save me.
My friends came back and I had to stop crying. LOL
I just thought that I'll just lay it down before Him and I know whatever will happen is the best for me, that His plans are the best for me. He is the one who knows what I need, He knows be better than I know myself.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"- Jeremiah 29:11
Exhibition day came and very few of the visitors came to take a look at our poster. Yes we were frustrated. The other posters were very crowded with visitors asking questions.
I repeat my motto throughout the day "For Your power is made perfect in my weakness"
And at the end of the day, it was announced that we made it through the finals held the next day.
I thanked God because I know that if it weren't for His grace and mercy and loveeeeeeee... ARHHHHH I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO
The finals is to do a presentation. The finalists were told to stay in one room until their team number was called.
I practiced over and over again because prayer and faith is not enough. We, ourselves must act.
"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead"-James 2:17
When we were about to be called, i grabbed my partner's hand and asked her to pray with me and she led the prayer. We prayed for wisdom and His grace, and that He would touch the judges' heart to not ask super hard questions! I mean, God has power over everybody, so...
Ecology has 5 judges while Math and Physics have 3. there are 33 teams competing for ecology while there are only 6 teams for math and 21 teams for Physics.
We presented
The judges asked questions.
The judge who was sitting on the middle seem to understand our presentation. the orher 2 judges on the left side seem to not understand m research.
What's amazing is that the middle judge guy debated the other 2 judges on the left and defended us!!!!
HOW THE HEAVENLY AMAZING IS THAT?!
We came out from the presentation a bit relaxed because we have done our part, the research, presenting, praying, and stuffs. Now its all up to God and we know He's doing His part right then.
The result came out
Bronze medal for Ecology goes to Natasha Kristie and Celina Sayuri from Cita Hati SHS (my school) with the title "Putri Malu (mimosa pudica L) as antimictobacterial"
Silver medal goes to
-sorry I forgot the school's name and the winner's name, and his research title-hehehe
and I was crushed. Bronze and Silver medals are taken already. No hope for me. But i was like "IN THE NAME JEESUSSSSS MY FATHER, PROVIDER, PROTECTOR, BEST FRIEND, CREATOR" in my heart
And the gold medal goes to
"Shintya Tanggara and Mariska Grace from Cita Hati SHS, with the title "A Novel Approach in Using Peanut Shells to Eliminate Copper Content in Water""
And I was like
"FOR YOUR POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN MY WEAKNESS, GOD. ONLY BY YOUR GRACE"
I couldn't believe that we won. Because I know that I was desperate because I don't stand any chance. That if I get the gold medal, it is not -even a little- because of me. If they say I won, I'd say, NO, I didn't win. JESUS WIN.
Can you imagine?
I dont know now I cant describe it in words...................................3qifgrcboqruhgqeuorhfquego urh
I grabbed Mariska's hand and we prayed together and give thanks to God.
ONLY BY HIS GRACE
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Making miracles (part 1)
A lot has been going on lately and I realized that I am so blessed. To be raised in a family that is a believer already is definitely only by God's grace.
I'm gonna talk about miracles in this post. Do you believe in miracles? I do. I see miracles everywhere and I'm not that surprised anymore. Our God is a God who's full of miracles.
Maybe some of you out there are hoping for a miracle, a change on something. Maybe you pray for it, but it never happened. Now you're questioning God. Can He do something to help me? Is He even there?
Now there are many reasons why God haven't answered your prayers. First, cause He knows you better than you know yourself. You may think you're ready for it but God knows you're not. Or because there's a barrier between you and God?
Now listen, God is the one who has the power to make miracles. I positively a hundred percent sure that God wants to make miracles in your life, but there are some things that you need to re-check or do before you can receive it from God. take a peek.
A. True repentance
The barrier I was talking about earlier, do you have it in your life, that blocks and prevents miracles from coming to you? What kind of barrier, shin? what are you even talking about?
i'm talking about sin. Yep, the thing that starts misery and makes you end in hell. Let me tell you a few things about sin.
1. it feels good
it does... for the flesh. but it destroys and crushes your soul.
2. It binds you
The longer you do it, the harder it gets to get out.
What's dangerous is when your sin is your habit. example?
Lying, cursing, pornography, etc. its like a quicksand.
3. its addictive
Its obvious. Drugs, pornography, free sex, cigarettes.
The best way to not get into it: DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.
Now if you are addicted to a type or sin, or hasn't forgive someone you truly hate, then this whole miracle in your life thing won't work. I know how most teens hate their parents nowadays, they feel bitter and stuffs. But brothas and sistas listen to me right now you gotta forgive them NOW. I know its hard, but you need to change if you want a miracle.
"It is a risk to change, but riskier not to."
Admit your sins to Christ and tell Him about everything. About how hard it is to stop watching porn or to swear, about how much you hate your dad, about how you really need a miracle right now. He's listening 24 hours. Even McDonald's closes at Christmas Eves.
Ask for His strength and I bet you can stop doing your sins. In fact, you can do anything in Him who strengthens you! If you're trying alone, its gonna be reeeally hard. But He's the source of all strength and He's ready to help you. scratch that. He has been wanting to help you since the very first day of your life. but now that you actually ask for His strength, now He can do His work in your life!
" the best way to escape temptations is to run to God"
That's step 1
.step 2 is coming in the next post. keep in tune and try to do these things, kay?
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I'm gonna talk about miracles in this post. Do you believe in miracles? I do. I see miracles everywhere and I'm not that surprised anymore. Our God is a God who's full of miracles.
Maybe some of you out there are hoping for a miracle, a change on something. Maybe you pray for it, but it never happened. Now you're questioning God. Can He do something to help me? Is He even there?
Now there are many reasons why God haven't answered your prayers. First, cause He knows you better than you know yourself. You may think you're ready for it but God knows you're not. Or because there's a barrier between you and God?
Now listen, God is the one who has the power to make miracles. I positively a hundred percent sure that God wants to make miracles in your life, but there are some things that you need to re-check or do before you can receive it from God. take a peek.
A. True repentance
The barrier I was talking about earlier, do you have it in your life, that blocks and prevents miracles from coming to you? What kind of barrier, shin? what are you even talking about?
i'm talking about sin. Yep, the thing that starts misery and makes you end in hell. Let me tell you a few things about sin.
1. it feels good
it does... for the flesh. but it destroys and crushes your soul.
2. It binds you
The longer you do it, the harder it gets to get out.
What's dangerous is when your sin is your habit. example?
Lying, cursing, pornography, etc. its like a quicksand.
3. its addictive
Its obvious. Drugs, pornography, free sex, cigarettes.
The best way to not get into it: DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.
Now if you are addicted to a type or sin, or hasn't forgive someone you truly hate, then this whole miracle in your life thing won't work. I know how most teens hate their parents nowadays, they feel bitter and stuffs. But brothas and sistas listen to me right now you gotta forgive them NOW. I know its hard, but you need to change if you want a miracle.
"It is a risk to change, but riskier not to."
Admit your sins to Christ and tell Him about everything. About how hard it is to stop watching porn or to swear, about how much you hate your dad, about how you really need a miracle right now. He's listening 24 hours. Even McDonald's closes at Christmas Eves.
Ask for His strength and I bet you can stop doing your sins. In fact, you can do anything in Him who strengthens you! If you're trying alone, its gonna be reeeally hard. But He's the source of all strength and He's ready to help you. scratch that. He has been wanting to help you since the very first day of your life. but now that you actually ask for His strength, now He can do His work in your life!
" the best way to escape temptations is to run to God"
That's step 1
.step 2 is coming in the next post. keep in tune and try to do these things, kay?
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The power of prayer
I am not supposed to post a blog right now since I have 7 tests next week. But I don't know. I wanna share this so bad.
What is prayer? There are 3 points about prayer that crossed my mind.
Prayer is our communication with God
When I say communication, it means there is a response and a 2 way conversation. You're not supposed to be the only one who's talking, but so does God. But most of us doesn't give God a chance to. We just talk to Him and complain about our live, say amen, and go to sleep.
Prayer means listening.
I remembered one time praying when I had a problem and I was like "Why God whyyyy?? Are You even listening???" and God said to me -surprisingly- "Are you done, kiddo? Now can you listen to ME?" and it slapped me. I haven't been listening, haven't I?
God speaks to you in different ways. He may talk to you audibly (which raaarely happens), through the holy spirit (which people usually think is "the voice of your heart" or "listen to what your heart says" its actually holy spirit), or through other people.
But try to take a moment alone, close your eyes and say "Yes God, I'm listening"
Prayer means surrender
Some people -most, maybe- only pray when they have given up, when they think there's no hope, when they think they've done all they can, when they are in desperation, when they think that they are not enough.
When they pray, it means that they know that they are weak, and that there's somebody who can help them fix everything.
Most people nowadays think that they are capapble to do anything. WIth technology, their knowledge, money. But there are just some things that you can't can't fix with technology, solve with your knowledge, or buy with money. When they face a dead end, they realize they're weak, and then, remember God and pray.
“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”-Mahatma Gandhi
Prayer is a powerful force
So when I was in China for 19 days, many weird and awesome thinkgs happen to me.
I was in this mall and I didn;t realize it was getting so late and dark. It was far away from the hotel I stayed in, and there are no sign of taxi. I was exhausted and worried since the only way to get back to the hotel is a taxi. I waited for a taxi not a single one came. It was getting darker and I grew desperate. I remembered God. I started praying in my heart silently, "Lord Jesus,"
suddenly an empty taxi stopped right in front of me.
I was so amazed by God. I believe that this is all planned by Him! People would say that it's a coincidence. I say not! Nothing in this whole wide world is a coincidence!
God knows I need a taxi. But He wanted me to humbly ask for His help first to remind me that I am nothing without Him. I mean, what would happen to me if I can't find a taxi? I haven't even finished praying! And He provided a taxi to stop right in front of me!
To sum up this post, here are some awesome quotes
“The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
“Prayer is not asking. Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God, at His disposition, and listening to His voice in the depth of our hearts.”
― Mother Teresa
“The more you pray, the less you'll panic. The more you worship, the less you worry. You'll feel more patient and less pressured.”
― Rick Warren, The Purpose of Christmas
“Prayer is not an old woman's idle amusement. Properly understood and applied, it is the most potent instrument of action.”
― Mahatma Gandhi
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What is prayer? There are 3 points about prayer that crossed my mind.
Prayer is our communication with God
When I say communication, it means there is a response and a 2 way conversation. You're not supposed to be the only one who's talking, but so does God. But most of us doesn't give God a chance to. We just talk to Him and complain about our live, say amen, and go to sleep.
Prayer means listening.
I remembered one time praying when I had a problem and I was like "Why God whyyyy?? Are You even listening???" and God said to me -surprisingly- "Are you done, kiddo? Now can you listen to ME?" and it slapped me. I haven't been listening, haven't I?
God speaks to you in different ways. He may talk to you audibly (which raaarely happens), through the holy spirit (which people usually think is "the voice of your heart" or "listen to what your heart says" its actually holy spirit), or through other people.
But try to take a moment alone, close your eyes and say "Yes God, I'm listening"
Prayer means surrender
Some people -most, maybe- only pray when they have given up, when they think there's no hope, when they think they've done all they can, when they are in desperation, when they think that they are not enough.
When they pray, it means that they know that they are weak, and that there's somebody who can help them fix everything.
Most people nowadays think that they are capapble to do anything. WIth technology, their knowledge, money. But there are just some things that you can't can't fix with technology, solve with your knowledge, or buy with money. When they face a dead end, they realize they're weak, and then, remember God and pray.
“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”-Mahatma Gandhi
Prayer is a powerful force
So when I was in China for 19 days, many weird and awesome thinkgs happen to me.
I was in this mall and I didn;t realize it was getting so late and dark. It was far away from the hotel I stayed in, and there are no sign of taxi. I was exhausted and worried since the only way to get back to the hotel is a taxi. I waited for a taxi not a single one came. It was getting darker and I grew desperate. I remembered God. I started praying in my heart silently, "Lord Jesus,"
suddenly an empty taxi stopped right in front of me.
I was so amazed by God. I believe that this is all planned by Him! People would say that it's a coincidence. I say not! Nothing in this whole wide world is a coincidence!
God knows I need a taxi. But He wanted me to humbly ask for His help first to remind me that I am nothing without Him. I mean, what would happen to me if I can't find a taxi? I haven't even finished praying! And He provided a taxi to stop right in front of me!
To sum up this post, here are some awesome quotes
“The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
“Prayer is not asking. Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God, at His disposition, and listening to His voice in the depth of our hearts.”
― Mother Teresa
“The more you pray, the less you'll panic. The more you worship, the less you worry. You'll feel more patient and less pressured.”
― Rick Warren, The Purpose of Christmas
“Prayer is not an old woman's idle amusement. Properly understood and applied, it is the most potent instrument of action.”
― Mahatma Gandhi
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He takes care of everything
"When we put God first, all other things fall into proper places or drop out of or lives"- Ezra Taft Benson
I know I've posted this quote before but I think there's a lot more to this quote than just that.
I saw this quote at one of my school's classroom and it slaps me right in the face. Why?
That's exactly what's happening to me right now and I couldn't find the right words to say it. But the quotes sums up everything.
In this post I'm gonna talk about PEOPLE.
Some people are not as nice as they seem. The truth is that maybe some of the people you love are actually the one who drags you down. They "influence" you because you spend your time with them.
Some people seems really nice and perfect and all. But when you get to know them, you know they're not and you may find out the exact opposite. Two-faced-people. It hurts to know.
But these people.. You don't need them in your lives, don't you think?
that's what happened to me. God has been sorting people out of my life. Some people are my childhood friends but God dropped them out and replaced them with even better people that helps me to grow.
That's how awesome my God is! I don't even need to think about who my friends are and in what type of community I should be in. He took care of everything and everything just felt so right when He's with me.
"As scarce as truth is, the supply has always exceeded the demand. - Anonymous"
I know I've posted this quote before but I think there's a lot more to this quote than just that.
I saw this quote at one of my school's classroom and it slaps me right in the face. Why?
That's exactly what's happening to me right now and I couldn't find the right words to say it. But the quotes sums up everything.
In this post I'm gonna talk about PEOPLE.
Some people are not as nice as they seem. The truth is that maybe some of the people you love are actually the one who drags you down. They "influence" you because you spend your time with them.
Some people seems really nice and perfect and all. But when you get to know them, you know they're not and you may find out the exact opposite. Two-faced-people. It hurts to know.
But these people.. You don't need them in your lives, don't you think?
that's what happened to me. God has been sorting people out of my life. Some people are my childhood friends but God dropped them out and replaced them with even better people that helps me to grow.
That's how awesome my God is! I don't even need to think about who my friends are and in what type of community I should be in. He took care of everything and everything just felt so right when He's with me.
"As scarce as truth is, the supply has always exceeded the demand. - Anonymous"
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What kind of happiness?
Hey guys. Just got home from China for 19 days last night at 11. Was a crazy trip but learned so much! I have dozens of homework and tests to do but I thought maybe I can write a short post.
Something has been bothering my mind lately. My last post was about happiness and stuffs. but what kind of happiness am I talking about? You see, people have different definitions on happiness. But is there true happiness?
Some people may think happiness is like getting a lot of money. Some people may think happiness is health. Some may wish for love or career or other things. But is there true happiness? THE true happiness?
How about salvation?
have you ever thought of that?
You can be as rich as u want, and smart as u want, as healthy as you want, as famous as you want, as anything you wanna be. But do you ever think what will happen to you in the end? For everything will eventually come to an end. Can your money save you? your fans, your lover?
That's why He chose to die on the cross. Nothing else in this whole wide universe can save you. Only by His love, He gave salvation to us without asking anything back in return.
And in Him there is true happiness. You'll understand. You won't care about money or other stuffs that feeds the flesh. For it is temporary.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.-2 Corinthians 4:18
Seek happiness in Him
God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing-C.S. Lewis
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Something has been bothering my mind lately. My last post was about happiness and stuffs. but what kind of happiness am I talking about? You see, people have different definitions on happiness. But is there true happiness?
Some people may think happiness is like getting a lot of money. Some people may think happiness is health. Some may wish for love or career or other things. But is there true happiness? THE true happiness?
How about salvation?
have you ever thought of that?
You can be as rich as u want, and smart as u want, as healthy as you want, as famous as you want, as anything you wanna be. But do you ever think what will happen to you in the end? For everything will eventually come to an end. Can your money save you? your fans, your lover?
That's why He chose to die on the cross. Nothing else in this whole wide universe can save you. Only by His love, He gave salvation to us without asking anything back in return.
And in Him there is true happiness. You'll understand. You won't care about money or other stuffs that feeds the flesh. For it is temporary.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.-2 Corinthians 4:18
Seek happiness in Him
God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing-C.S. Lewis
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Don't stay broken
Many people complain to me lately that its really hard to be happy. How is that so? I think everybody deserves happiness and whoever looks for it, will eventually find it.
I was once friends with an amazing person. She's gorgeous, smart, kind, everything a guy could be looking for. Unfortunately, the guy she likes can't see that. She was never a priority, always an option, and I think no girl deserves to be an option. Agree?
After months of pacing back and forth, she gave up.. though not completely. But she did break down. The same thing happened to me too, with similar time. I was broken, too to be honest. Even my twitter timeline was full of "galau" things. LOL. Even though no one actually complained, i know its disturbing. teehe.
so, my friend was like "I'm to tired to be fixed" I think I can understand how she feels. To be left an option when you made someone your priority. It hurts. That's the thing about pain. it demands to be felt. If she could just wave away her feelings, she certainly would. But its not as easy as it sounds. Pain is humane. Nothings wrong with being hurt (check "Everybody Hurts" by Avril Lavigne in case u havent:D). But to stay hurt?
But what differentiates us was that I got back up and she stayed broken.
How did I get back up?
Lets see....
I realize a few stuffs when I was in the breakdown.
1. Staying broken won't take you anywhere
It doesn't give you any positive things. It continually stabs, especially when you over think about everything. spending hours staring at nothing and thinking about miserable things you have been through, listening to songs that makes u cry (oh I've been through this and I'm perfectly sure most girls do this, too. just don't, okay? it breaks you down even more and makes you think about stuffs that you're not supposed to think about), talk to other people in misery, too ( this actually makes you feel worst, believe me).
Staying broken means you let your feelings take control over you. weakness. "Are you that weak?" was the question I asked myself repeatedly at that time. And I decide that I am the one who has the power to control my emotions and feelings. Staying broken is not fate. It's a choice. An awful one.
“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place."- Lance Amstrong
2. Happiness comes from the inside.
You don't need anything or anyone to make yourself happy. People can only hurt you when you give them a chance to. As long as you don't give them gaps to sneak in and hurt you, you'll be fine. trust me on this.
You don't need him or her to make you happy. I know what its like to being used to be so close with somebody and then all of a sudden he/she is gone. But you were born without them happy, you will survive living without them happy, too.
3. The power of prayer
Its like you're talking to yourself. But the greatest Author is listening and He can change your whole story in a blink of an eye. Talk to Him like you're talking to your best friend. He will not turn away even once. He has the best answers you can ever imagine. Your solution and happiness is just a prayer away! If u feel bad for not having what you want though you've worked so hard and prayed for it, don't be disappointed. Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. You don not know what's best for you. He does. It only takes a little bit of faith and trust.
For any of you who are broken right now, heads up, stay strong.
a great quote to sum up everything
"When we put God first, all other things fall into proper places or drop out of or lives"- Ezra Taft Benson
I was once friends with an amazing person. She's gorgeous, smart, kind, everything a guy could be looking for. Unfortunately, the guy she likes can't see that. She was never a priority, always an option, and I think no girl deserves to be an option. Agree?
After months of pacing back and forth, she gave up.. though not completely. But she did break down. The same thing happened to me too, with similar time. I was broken, too to be honest. Even my twitter timeline was full of "galau" things. LOL. Even though no one actually complained, i know its disturbing. teehe.
so, my friend was like "I'm to tired to be fixed" I think I can understand how she feels. To be left an option when you made someone your priority. It hurts. That's the thing about pain. it demands to be felt. If she could just wave away her feelings, she certainly would. But its not as easy as it sounds. Pain is humane. Nothings wrong with being hurt (check "Everybody Hurts" by Avril Lavigne in case u havent:D). But to stay hurt?
But what differentiates us was that I got back up and she stayed broken.
How did I get back up?
Lets see....
I realize a few stuffs when I was in the breakdown.
1. Staying broken won't take you anywhere
It doesn't give you any positive things. It continually stabs, especially when you over think about everything. spending hours staring at nothing and thinking about miserable things you have been through, listening to songs that makes u cry (oh I've been through this and I'm perfectly sure most girls do this, too. just don't, okay? it breaks you down even more and makes you think about stuffs that you're not supposed to think about), talk to other people in misery, too ( this actually makes you feel worst, believe me).
Staying broken means you let your feelings take control over you. weakness. "Are you that weak?" was the question I asked myself repeatedly at that time. And I decide that I am the one who has the power to control my emotions and feelings. Staying broken is not fate. It's a choice. An awful one.
“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place."- Lance Amstrong
2. Happiness comes from the inside.
You don't need anything or anyone to make yourself happy. People can only hurt you when you give them a chance to. As long as you don't give them gaps to sneak in and hurt you, you'll be fine. trust me on this.
You don't need him or her to make you happy. I know what its like to being used to be so close with somebody and then all of a sudden he/she is gone. But you were born without them happy, you will survive living without them happy, too.
3. The power of prayer
Its like you're talking to yourself. But the greatest Author is listening and He can change your whole story in a blink of an eye. Talk to Him like you're talking to your best friend. He will not turn away even once. He has the best answers you can ever imagine. Your solution and happiness is just a prayer away! If u feel bad for not having what you want though you've worked so hard and prayed for it, don't be disappointed. Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. You don not know what's best for you. He does. It only takes a little bit of faith and trust.
For any of you who are broken right now, heads up, stay strong.
a great quote to sum up everything
"When we put God first, all other things fall into proper places or drop out of or lives"- Ezra Taft Benson
Lack of time, or lack of motivation?
i don't know whats happening to me lately but i don't feel like being in a crowd of people. It pisses me off most of the time. I'd rather sit alone in class, too, which is weird cause I'm not that kind of person.
I don't know.. maybe I overthink everything. Even my Business Management teacher called me personally a few days ago. He said that I'm not who I used to be and not using my full potential and stuffs. I told him that I have lots of things to do especially I'm in IB now. You see, even before I started IB, my seniors are scaring me! like "you'll have to stay home even on weekends and you can't go to parties anymore and blah blah blahhhhhhh" and it scares me. Not that I party a lot but I have... things to do besides studying. But he told me something that changes the way I think about everything. "It is not an excuse"
I was kinda shock when he said that. I think about it and I admit that his statement is true. It was my choice going into IB and now I have to do my best whatever it takes. Lack of time is not an excuse, Lack of faith? Lack of motivation? maybe.
so now I'm trying to read some quotes and books and stuffs to motivate myself getting through this IB thing!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me-Philippians 4:13
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I don't know.. maybe I overthink everything. Even my Business Management teacher called me personally a few days ago. He said that I'm not who I used to be and not using my full potential and stuffs. I told him that I have lots of things to do especially I'm in IB now. You see, even before I started IB, my seniors are scaring me! like "you'll have to stay home even on weekends and you can't go to parties anymore and blah blah blahhhhhhh" and it scares me. Not that I party a lot but I have... things to do besides studying. But he told me something that changes the way I think about everything. "It is not an excuse"
I was kinda shock when he said that. I think about it and I admit that his statement is true. It was my choice going into IB and now I have to do my best whatever it takes. Lack of time is not an excuse, Lack of faith? Lack of motivation? maybe.
so now I'm trying to read some quotes and books and stuffs to motivate myself getting through this IB thing!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me-Philippians 4:13
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Back Alive
I went to Europe for this summer vacation. There's this conference for the environment and by God's grace, I don't know how, I passed the tests. Because honestly, I dont have what it takes to be able to join the team (12 students). there are students that are waaaaay smarter, sociable, and awesome-er (if that's a word) than me. So I think I was chosen because God just went into the judges' mind and hypnotize them or something. because i feel that i was chosen not based on my ability but.. only by God's grace.
Many things that I never thought of before happened. Things that brings blessing. Let me list them:
1. True friends are hard to find
I've got new friends along the trip and find out who's real and who's fake. Who helps and who blames. Who cares and who stabs. But at least I learn something from each and everyone of them. Everybody is not perfect. See then good in them and learn from the bad. Watch other's mistakes, and learn from them, that's how you learn about life.
2. A true leader sticks around
" It is better to lead from behind and to put others in front, especially when you celebrate victory when nice things occur. You take the front line when there is danger. Then people will appreciate your leadership"
I'm not the leader of the group. I leared that to be a leader, you don't just stick to your teams only in the good times and leave them on their own on their bad times. A leader is chosen to be a leader because everybody believes that he will be there all the time, without any childish excuses, and STAYS. A leader is most needed when something wrong comes.
What happens when a leader leaves when he is needed the most? Everybody lost their respect.
3. The power of prayer
"Many people pray as if God were a big aspirin pill; they come only when they hurt. ~B. Graham Dienert "
This quote is sadly true. Thank God He stays the same forever. In this trip, I learned that most of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. God answers prayers at the RIGHT TIME, RIGHT PLACE, WITH THE RIGHT PERSON.
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Mark 11:24
Trust is all we need. I've prayed for something for 6 years and God stayed silent. All He said was "patience. The time will come" it took 6 years and suddenly God answered my prayers unexpectedly in this trip! It is the right time, right place, and with the right person! TRUST!
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Many things that I never thought of before happened. Things that brings blessing. Let me list them:
1. True friends are hard to find
I've got new friends along the trip and find out who's real and who's fake. Who helps and who blames. Who cares and who stabs. But at least I learn something from each and everyone of them. Everybody is not perfect. See then good in them and learn from the bad. Watch other's mistakes, and learn from them, that's how you learn about life.
2. A true leader sticks around
" It is better to lead from behind and to put others in front, especially when you celebrate victory when nice things occur. You take the front line when there is danger. Then people will appreciate your leadership"
I'm not the leader of the group. I leared that to be a leader, you don't just stick to your teams only in the good times and leave them on their own on their bad times. A leader is chosen to be a leader because everybody believes that he will be there all the time, without any childish excuses, and STAYS. A leader is most needed when something wrong comes.
What happens when a leader leaves when he is needed the most? Everybody lost their respect.
3. The power of prayer
"Many people pray as if God were a big aspirin pill; they come only when they hurt. ~B. Graham Dienert "
This quote is sadly true. Thank God He stays the same forever. In this trip, I learned that most of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. God answers prayers at the RIGHT TIME, RIGHT PLACE, WITH THE RIGHT PERSON.
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Mark 11:24
Trust is all we need. I've prayed for something for 6 years and God stayed silent. All He said was "patience. The time will come" it took 6 years and suddenly God answered my prayers unexpectedly in this trip! It is the right time, right place, and with the right person! TRUST!
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the beginning
its the beginning of my blog.
the beginning of a very little thing. But you never know where small things lead.
Have you ever messed up so bad that you just wanna run away from tomorrow?
Don't run away. Facing the reality is really hard but there's someone that will help you through everything. I've known him since I was a kid. He's not my biological father but I call him Dad.
He is unbelievably passionate and full of love. He said he'd die for me and I know they're not just words. He'd tell me everyday is a new day. The past is the past. None of those matters anymore and what really matters is this moment.
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~ Dr, Seuss
I know that right now, there's someone who really cares for you. I am positively 100% sure about this. You may forget about him, or you might have heard of him before, or you've known him already. But try to sort people out. Who matters and who dont.
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the beginning of a very little thing. But you never know where small things lead.
Have you ever messed up so bad that you just wanna run away from tomorrow?
Don't run away. Facing the reality is really hard but there's someone that will help you through everything. I've known him since I was a kid. He's not my biological father but I call him Dad.
He is unbelievably passionate and full of love. He said he'd die for me and I know they're not just words. He'd tell me everyday is a new day. The past is the past. None of those matters anymore and what really matters is this moment.
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~ Dr, Seuss
I know that right now, there's someone who really cares for you. I am positively 100% sure about this. You may forget about him, or you might have heard of him before, or you've known him already. But try to sort people out. Who matters and who dont.
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